Moving forward

Things keeps steadily moving on and getting stranger as they go.

This blog might not make sense, I have recently discovered that the lovely feeling of being watched is more or less a soul bond, and apparently none of them appreciate how little I like people reading over my shoulder. Thank the Gods that this one is one of my favorite people ever, and I think he could just about get away with murders around me. I know, I can be a sucker.

In any case, I have been trying to figure out exactly what to do with this blog, and exactly what I need to do with my Celt. I have been flirting with this one guy, and for the love of the gods, no matter how many times I explain otherkin and how essential it is to me, the man still has no clue. Since I have recently discovered fictkin, and and exploring that as my identity it has become a bit more of a focus than my Aldari life. That's ok as far as I'm concerned at the moment as it is currently influencing my life right now in a much more dramatic fashion. My Celt can't understand how being elven impacts my life, and my fictkin type is from a fandom we both share, a fandom that he has had trouble accepting as it has grown and changed. This is going to be a problem. I tried introducing him to a friend's blog, a friend I shared a life with (in a manner of speaking) and the Pop Culture Paganism site that she runs and his response was absolutely insane. He apparently has the ability to read through all of these blogs and have absolutely no idea what is going on. I will give him that it is near 2AM his time, but it is getting to be a bit ridiculous. I can only explain to him so many times exactly what is going on before it becomes abundantly clear that he is absolutely not paying any attention whatsoever. This is his second chance, if he can't figure it out, I am going to have to let him go. I made the mistake of staying with some one I thought was willing to learn and understand. I am not doing that again.

On a brighter note, I now have a proper laptop, and that will make typing in general much easier and will help me keep up with my writing much more effectively.

Hope the late night ramble was ok.
Ttyl and bb
Shilo

All the strange things with new beginnings.

Two years and more drama than I care to admit to later and I am back. I realize that I am not often the most consistent writer, and I appreciate any of you who actually find my ramblings on life to be interesting.

The short version of my life is that my family is down a life partner, but I have gained a beautiful boy in return, so things seen to have evened out in the end.

To be quite honest, I often feel that I would be better off if I was able to mediate a bit more than I do, but with everything going on my attention span hasn't always been where it needs to be for a more traditional meditation. I do keep up with my energy work, although it is almost impossible for me to completely stop.

In spite of the fact I continue to identify as otherkin, I have not had the time or energy to keep up with the otherkin community at large. I am starting to completely appreciate the reason that many of the older members of the community drop out. Being a nonhuman soul does not mean we do not have the same struggles as human souls this life. In addition to this, I have noticed that the majority of the other 'kin I have met have more than their fair share of setbacks this life. As our very real, mundane responsibilities kick in, we have less and less time to entertain otherworldly issues. Astral can wait, however the power bill cannot.

In the end I hope to have enough time to write a bit about my experiences again. Here's to a better future.

Be well,
Shilo

News from the far write

Lately my blog posts have been sporadic at best,  an I do apologies for this. I have not forgotten you all, I promise.  What has been  happening is I have been quite busy lately doing a serious overhaul concerning my personal relationships offline and preparing for my new baby. Yes, mid September will see my beautiful baby boy become an older brother.  This isn't very far away, so I am in the process of expanding my writing as well as watching for new opportunities to work from home so I can continue to provide for my family. This has put the majority of my spiritual and academic work on hold, which has been a little bit frustrating.  I will admit to not being quite as patient as I ought to be, but I am working on it. No one is perfect, there is always room to improve and learn.

For writing,  I have been doing my best at a website called textbroker. It's a good place to begin a writing career,  and they are constantly updating the pool of possible writing assignments.  The team there ia very professional and will get back to you quickly if you ever need help. The other place I am currently writing is much more informal and operates as a social Bubblews (http://www.bubblews.com/account/349570-shilo) bit like Tumblr, and I have been having fun on it. Not only that, but these people pay you for activity on your page. It's not much at first, but it can add up. This blog will be more my take on how the universe works than a blog of my personal life,and much more varied in terms of topics. 
Hope life is treating all well in the mean time.
Bb and have fun

May the nutty be with us

There is so much crazy shit going on around here it's amazing.  However I'm going to try to keep it short.
The good news is my little one has successfully begun his transition into pre-k, and is most likely eligible for special services.  This will be a blessing,  especially when we can start speach therapy.  I just wish he could tell me what he's thinking.  He tries,  but it's just not English that comes out. With his little brother due in just under two months,  any improvement will help.
I may have a consulting job at a local coffee shop in the making. I may have to have a group of friends over, maybe an otherkin or ace gather to help them get started. They do have cake, so I'm leaning towards an ace gather.
However my jobs on textbroker are now few and far between.  It is as if no one needs work and it doesn't help that I am still have the lowest rating. Hopefully that will be improving soon, but I am hoping to branch out. With a little research and hard work, it will happen.

Things have been quite odd here. It is the calm before the storm in terms of the impending implosion of my life. In the space of time I have been given to try to figure out a few things in my life. One of the most interesting things I have been able to go over is my spirituallity. Though I am completely convinced there is something to the concept of Divinity,  I often find myself unconvinced that this divine being is something that we would be able to understand,  or even be able to directly notice and interact with us. To completely complicate this is the fact that I can't accept a spiritual concept that defies science. There is plenty of parts of my spiritually that can't be verified by science,  but most things that defy science just bother me and I can't put a finger on why. It just seems the best way go about creating a stable reality.
Despite this, there is something that tells me that divinity dose exist, just not in quite the anthropromorphic sense most faiths portray their creator deity as. I am a bit of a henotheist/politheist and it has been almost as interesting a journey to take as it has been difficult to explain.  Perhaps when I come to a better understanding of where I am going spiritually I will be able to figure out how it all fits together.

More and more transitions

I have been a very quiet blogger for many reasons, however a dull life is not one of them. Though this is not a good time to go into details,  I will say there have been several stressful transitions and it is far from over. The good news is my little ball of charm has been able to get into an early intervention program to help with some of his attention issues. They are looking to test him for Autism as well, because despite being much more social than many people on the Autistic spectrum he does have a lot of the markers. I was only recently able to get him in so we are only at the beginning stages now. I can't wait until speach therapy can kick in. I know it may sound odd to many of you, but I want him to be able to tell me he's angry, rather than just cry, yell 'no', and bang his head on things. In my personal life, I am looking high and low for a few good ways to make a living from my home. With one hyper tot here, and one due in September it's simply not practical to attempt to get a traditional job I commute to yet.

With all of this going on, I have had no real time to work on anything spiritually.  I do believe i may have a few more ideas of some past lives, and the family I had in them, but I am not overly sure. The description of 'Elf' still fits the best, though through my interactions with others I often suspect there is more than just that. It will just take time, which is something I am often quite short of. In terms if what, if any religion or pantheon i am going to completely follow, I do now know that I feel at home around Egyptian deity, and that some of the best inspiration for staying strong has come from the Norse Heathens though to he perfectly honest,  sometimes it's just inspiration from some of my favorite science fiction stories. All of the people who just keep trying,  even when there is no good, clean way to fix a mess.

I would stay longer, but it seems my son will be awake any moment now. Have a lovely day, all and blessed be,
Shilo

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Babies and spring

It has been a bit since I dropped by to see you all. Spring cleaning and such, along with watching my son and nephew have kept me going. I do admit, that in anticipation for the final spring festival, Beltane, as we'll as the stress of life, I got a bit carried away at Walmart, but at least I have the candy and lights, yet hit spices to celebrate with. There is no way I am going to let my baby go another year without a good celebration.

I have also been busy cleansing my living space as I clean it. Yes, I spend time with family, but not having a space that is mine is frustrating. At the same time, I am renewing my studies of basic energy manipulation as we'll as spirituality, a spiritual.spring cleaning of a sorts.I began the new moon past, and intend to continue the studying and meditation rituals at least through the upcoming full moon. I am focusing both on retrieving memories reinvest lives, as we'll as improving focus and memory in this life. I have had some measure of success, mainly in the later goal, but it at least has me started on the right path. There is no point in wishing to be a good kitchen witch if you do nothing to become one.

As for past lives, though the progress I have made on that is scant, I have been feeling a bit more comfortable in my skin. I am more comfortable with my identity as elven Otherkin, as well as my life now. Taking this life as one of many learning experiences is getting easier, even if the lessons aren't. At least I no longer feel ugly as a get out, despite the fact it's been confirmed by many of my friends I look almost the same on physical as on astral. More on that at a later date, as I do believe my tiny tot charges may be up.

See you all about, and  Bb,
Shilo