It's been a rather long week. In the midst of getting ready for school and trying to find the money to pay, I have had a few other set-backs. At work, my hours are not what they could be. I love having my child with me, but it's making work a bit more complicated than I think it ought to be. To compensate, I am trying to work harder in other areas of my life, and am trying to sell a few things on e-bay. A few novelty espresso cups ought to be going up in the next few days. I have always had a thing for espresso and I was thinking that it would go well with a slightly tart vanilla pound cake I recently made. I am going to be trying to sell the recipe for this pound cake along with the cups for kicks and giggles. Most likely I will be converting it, and a few other inexpensive recipes into a PDF booklet and selling it separately. The shop will be attached to my tumblr blog as well as a cafe press page. After all, what's the fun of having a bunch of fun recipes and nothing cute to put it in?
In addition to the problems with working and school, my mate and I have been running into a few of our own problems. He hasn't had a load in days, and his co-driver recently quit on him. This leaves him out in Illinois with only layover pay. It's enough for him to live on relatively well, but it's not going to be helping here and it's making us both anxious. Anxious to the point where we are snipping at each other for no good reason. It's not good for our relationship, but the good part is we both realize that this isn't what we are all about. I suppose it's just what happens when two dramatic people fall in love, nothing dangerous, just soap-opera style drama.
After all is said and done, things do look like they are going to get better. I am making some progress on understanding myself this life. I am going to try taking a cleansing bath tonight before I sleep, and hopefully I will be able to pull up some more memories and a better understanding of where I have been. If I get lucky, this new self-understanding will also help with some of my self-esteem issues this life. I have had many issues with my self-image this life, though none seem to be related to past lives I feel that any improvement in one part of my life will be able to positively influence everything. Feeling more confident about my identity and any ability I have will help me find confidence in all areas of my life because I will be able to see myself as successful. It may seem to be a bizarre idea to some, that confidence in a spiritual sens of my self could carry over to other areas, but it's a simple psychological trick. As I feel I'm more capable, even if it is simply confidence in my spiritual identity as an elf it will help me feel more confident in general and make everything else easier because I expect it to be.
In any case, things are crazy at the moment, but with luck they will start to look up soon. It is almost time for work, so I will see you all about later.
Blessed Be and talk later.
Shilo
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