The circles we run in

Here I am, back after another hiatus of trying to keep the family together. Thank the Gods it's fall again. As I said in my previous blog, the autumn energy keeps me feeling a bit more optimistic, but even that hasn't kept me going as much as it usually has. Winter is coming, and with it, obscenely high power bills which are my job to pay. Normally this wouldn't be much of an issue, however with my mate making next to nothing, and being in no position to help, I am more than a bit strapped for cash. To top it all off, my baby boy has been to see the doctor three times this month over a mystery fever that no one quite understands. It would be one thing if he had an infection of some sort. An infection I can treat, a mystery fever that has had no other side-effects than a runny nose, or heightened white blood cell count is crazy. And even those two side-effects didn't occur at the same time. I do have health insurance, but even the modest co-pay on that is starting to really kill my reserves of cash. Trying to make ends meet, I have been looking about online for some writing jobs, but those I feel I am qualified for are in short supply. It could be simple inexperience, or possibly nerves as I am reluctant to put myself out on a limb, even though I am seeing no other way. My family has always been very financially conservative, and I greatly dislike wasting money in any way. It rather plays into a few issues with anxiety I have been having. Nothing really related to past lives in any way, simply with watching people this life. I know I should probably get some help with it, but to be perfectly honest I am not sure how well it would work. To complicate things I honestly don't think I have the money for such things. Also, my suspicions are that any psychologist I see would likely want to put me on medication, which I am usually against taking. It's not that I don't believe it would help, but I see medications for most illnesses, both physical and mental, to be more of a temporary solution and I would prefer to find something more permanent. Especially since I know I don't have the money for any sort of medication. I barely make enough to afford the cold medication at the dollar tree. On jobs, I am planning on creating a blog based on a few of my interests on Stumble Upon. I have greatly enjoyed wandering around the internet on it, and have found some fairly interesting articles on neuro-psychology, a bit of sarcasm in philosophy, and plenty of interesting cognitive psychology pages. It would be interesting to see what, if any feed back I get from my crazy perspective on the subjects. In any case, my son is waking, and lunch is almost cooked. I will see you all around, and hopefully more fequently now. Blessed Be, Shilo