living in a house of cards

Through my latest hiatus from writing on this blog I have spent some time studying Buddhism and have been trying to come to terms with how impertinent things in life really are. I know myself, I am always looking for a way to create an environment for myself and my family in which I have some measure of control and ky actions will have some meanin. Recently I got the news that my hours where being slashed, not due to ky work ethic or performance on the job but ky difficulty in finding a babysitter for my child. One nervous breakdown later I am reminded of how far I am from my ultimate goal of some inner meaningful peace. In response, I am renewing my search for a job online that I can use to support my family from the house. My son is the most important person in my life. I also happen to be a proud pagan 'kin woman. I do feel that some of the more mature myers of the 'kin community ought to start standing up and showing that we are mature people who simply have an unusual self identity. I also believe that every one of us should be exchange we dish to see. Thought know that like my life and the house of cards we will always have to be careful as we represent both ourselves as well as the community. We have a growing community that is alive and thriving. I have a cafe press page that will have 'kin and pagan based designs. I am going to take suggestions on topics for this blog as well as design ideas that you guys would enjoy. Just e-mail me and put my blog name as the title of the e-mail and I will get back to you as soon as I can. I will see you all about. BB, Shilo