New beginnings and rocky relationships

Hello all,
Not much has changed, yet I still feel that something is with going wrong now or will soon. I have always had issue with anxiety, and mostly caused by the fact I am not always certain how to solve my problem this life. To be quite honest I doubt that this trait is confined to this life and the only life I feel I lived without it I spent as a cat. Recently I have met a group of other elves who feel familiar, I am hoping that they will stay a positive influence in my life because when wrong are talking I don't feel quite as isolated. They even periodically get together, though I doubt I will really get to go any time soon, due to them being so far away and my son being so young. What is killing me isn't that my family from this life isn't around, but there aren't any people like me, or who even know and accept what I am near here. I often feel I am wearing a Mark I never get to take off, and even though the differences are minor, I do enjoy being myself. For now, I am going to focus on finding a way to support myself and my little one and hoping to make it out sometime. Speaking family, I no longer have the faintest idea what my mate Ian doing, or what could be going though his head. I do know that both my spirituality and self identity seem to be things he is hoping issue with. I told him before we even starred dating three years ago about being elven, pagan, and that I needed a relationship base on friendship, not physical attraction. He said it was ok, but low it seems to be causing tension at every turn. Being otherkin is my 'elfy thing', paganism becomes a fad and my attempts to include him in my social circles go up in flames when he manages to insult every one in under three minutes. All of this allong side financial issues, miscommunication and my epic stress levels I am going crazy doing what I can to save our relationship. I know it can't be just mw killing it, and I certainly can't save it alone. However it is time for me to get ready for work. I hope to see you all again soon. BB and see you all soon, Shilo