Memories

Tonight I was feeling a bit off, and decided to.check out my Tarot card set. She must be angry with me, about being ignored for so long, but as I flipped through I thought of the woman who have it to me.

In a sense, she is my sister and my exact posit. Her name, is Ryu, and yes we are both perfectly aware that is traditionally a make name, not that she ever cared. Ryu never we really approved of the few men I dated, and absolutely abhors my husband to the point that she cut all ties with me. I never even had it in me to tell her that she was going to be an auntie to my child, not that it maters with her no longer in my life.

All of this makes me think of the winding path I have taken to understand myself, and where I belong. Even, and probably especially after discovering Otherkin, and the fact I truly did have the right to detour from the spiritual path of my family I went through a lot of changes. Trying to redefine myself, who and what family was and means to me have lead me through a few social groups, and soap opera worthy misadventures, but it all leads to now.

I feel that the most important thing for me to do at this juncture in my life is to learn how to let go of poisonous relationships and balance who and what I an with the responsibilities of this life. Honestly I still feel very young, despite the fact that most consider me to be 'older'. I have a lot of living and loving to do, and no small amount of learning. Hopefully this misadventure will turn out well.

In any case, I will see you all about later,
Bb and ttyl,
Shilo